Holy you-know-what, I am glad to be done with my 90 day program! Rehab is not the most fun I’ve ever had in my life, but I am optimistic that pain pills are a thing of the past for me.
90 days. Think about what you’ve been doing for the last 3 months and then think of a 90 day program of talking about your feelings, your issues, and your relationships for 3 months.
Like I said, I am just glad it is over. My counselor of course said that now is when the hard part really begins because rehab is a bubble, but I am really looking forward to driving my car again (sober) and the simplest things like cooking dinner in my own kitchen again.
I was deep into those pills though, ya know? I knew that, as much as I didn’t want to be away from home, a 90 day program was right for me. Any shorter amount of time and I would have relapsed when I left, no doubt. The 3 months gave me some real time to create new habits and to break old thought patterns.
If I had left before 90 days, after like 30 or 60, I probably would have convinced myself that I could still hang out with the same people and still go to the same places. I can’t. I know that. Thanks 90 day program.
Okay that’s enough cheesiness. If you’re looking into rehab and the addict part of your brain is saying that you only need a 30 day program, just really reconsider. If you’re like me, you are lucky to be alive. I do not ever want to feel as hopeless and worthless as I felt while I was so actively using. I reluctantly chose the 90 day program, and I would urge you to do the same.
I met some truly amazing people that I could not stand even after the first few weeks, or even a month. As we all got sober though and weren’t such jerks anymore, we definitely bonded the way TV and movies show addicts being.
I hate to admit it, trust me, but it’s true. There are a solid handful or two of people I can call anytime, day or night, for anything I need. I didn’t have that before when I was on pills, I thought nobody could care about me, but honestly, I owe my new relationships to the 90 day program versus the 30 or 60 day one I would have rather done.
Oh, and one more thing, I like myself now. Can you say that? I couldn’t’ before, but guess what I owe that to too? Altogether now: the 90 day program!